una urgencia..

oh gracious..well, its been a while...not really in the mood for this right now, but i have a feeling in me which seems worthy of note. its an urge, i think. perhaps a feeling of being propelled, like things are speeding up.
what things, you may ask? well, healing, i think mainly. the time is coming, and has now come, to open myself to god, as the great lady has it "like a bowl, like a flower, like a wound". i'm pretty sure i haven't been hiding from him. but equally i can admit that i haven't been chasing him. truth is, i can't be arsed. or haven't been, anyway.
i know that i need words of truth. the profound, the searching questions, and the ambiguous notions of grace are no longer adequate. i have lived off these things for so long.
the times they are a-changing.
so,as much as the people i love and respect can give, in the true-word-dispensing category, i am now willing to ask for them, listen up, pay attention and duly act.
so bring it on, truth-speakers. and come on, truth-giver, now's your chance....i'm all ears