manchester

i am here.
returned to the north. with hardly any of my possessions, no house to call my own and a job that i am growing to hate less everyday.
i am missing home slightly, the simple times of life with only a few friends, most of whom never ask questions that really involve thinking too much and certainly no verbal processing.
i am enjoying being with the friends i have here again, but it sure is a readjustment. they are lovely to me and they love god and teach me alot and i do laugh with them often
i am struggling to see how this is different to before though, or how i have aimed higher. i haven't, to be honest, and i am now here and trying still to find out how to do that. the job is tedious, the people there are really fun and kind but i don't want to spend the next years of my life being the one to send blood out to hospitals all over manchester
i miss fiona and nick and mum and dad
and fiona is sick which makes it all worse
i had a lovely time at claire and george;s wedding, i never saw someone look so at home in her wedding dress. the whole day was just pure fun, i laughed so much. we went up to the brdige when we finally got back to hope in the evening, and drank our wine and laughed really really hard and all talked at once and had to think of hawaiian words and cigars smell BAD and we just all enjoyed being together and being young too i think.
one of my favourite tiimes of the weekend was sitting with cate with our wine and cigarettes outside hope before the bridge. we played a superb round of hawaii-based top fives (or hawaii 5-ohs if you will) and i really think it was one of my most memorable rounds of the game ever. can;t believe she'll be gone in a week.
also loved having them all to stay at my house on friday night
i should go i'm rambling my way through the story of my last week without a care for structure of any kind
i'm glad i heard from the mallowdale gang that pride and prej is shit i shan't bother i suspected it would be awful. for scathing criticism see miss sal.
i'm off to bed. work at 8. lord above
manchester is good though, am enjoying it. so much more coffee here
loveanna x x x x