year end..

is it just me or has this year been somewhat colourless...?
i'm not about to moan, but merely to remark that it has been personally rather uneventful and often hard or horrid for some people i know...
i have also laughed alot this year, i have made a new friend in the brilliant katie hall, i have been to lovely weddings and been at least 2nd drunkest at some drunken parties......i gave up smoking, for a long time.....then a slight hint of boy trauma and the filter-tip queen was back on the scene....
i think its basically been one of slight ups and slight downs....which i guess you could say isn't bad, exactly, but not terribly anything..........i have learnt an awful lot from being and remaining in this slightly bland state, however....mainly that god asks to be known and not felt. there is more of this one fact to learn, obviously....but its a start....
i have this year re-discovered the sheer comfty warmth of being entranced by a novel. those few days, or sometime hours, at times weeks, when the thick plot of a story, or the growing familiarity of its characters, or the delight in getting home to find no-one there, just an empty house and a kettle creating the perfect reading room. aaaah, the history of love. i cannot tell of the wonders of that book.
along with nicole krauss i am discovering the merits of the written work of our dear lord himself.....the bible is become a place where i am much more readily at home and enjoying myself. that wasn't at all true in the bad old days of 2005....!
i had one of the most surprising holidays of my life...the trip to belfast and moneymore and lough erne with drago claire and emma. never have three days been so fully streched out..and all for our comfort and joy - and the sun shone! ha sitting on a boat with death of a naturalist! ha!
i would not have dreamt, not seriously anyway, of living on my own in any time prior to now...but that this time last year the same was true of heald place....hey this time next year i could be living in london, that last bastion of places i swore i'd never live....!
i have not written as much as i would have liked this year, especially on here, and for that i am sorry.....
i have colour in my cheeks these days though....i have sidestepped the pastel path of 2006 and am now looking for garish clashes and bold flowers and daring stripes and more shades of green that even i had thought possible...
2007, i await you...colour me an interesting time of it...