domingo, febrero 18, 2007

it is better to give..

..than to receive...
not right now..not with the waiting..
and the having to report back...
and the clock ticking, and the increasing trust in the lord..
actually, that last part is good...
i have this incredible peace and trust, from jesus, that whatever happens, i'll be fine...
that if nothing happens, no word comes, to reponse offered, no acknowledgment of receipt granted...i'll be fine...
my heart cannot break over this...if it falters slightly, or feels the weight of hopes dashed, i'll still be fine, because i risked my heart with jesus, and he'll reassemble whatever threatens to fall away, or will sooth the bruised ego of one who chronicled her valentine endeavours on here....or will keep threaded whatever of good has been added to her through the journey of nine months of wondering if she might have finally seen him...or if it was just a system failure..a red herring...a welcome hiccup...just a brief encounter..
we'll see...x

5 comentarios:

Lizzie dijo...

when can u come play at my house??

Unknown dijo...

that is why you are ace....X

The Hughesz dijo...

I'm still baffled... I beckon enlightenment like the dove from above... anyway

Joshua Knox dijo...

You are totally awesome! Nothing but love and respect for you! The way you process stuff is amazing. Besides, now we'll se how brave the boy is!!

na dijo...

joshua aidan knox what on EARTH are you doing up at 10.35pm...?! get to bed young man! now, re the undisclosed identity of the valentine recipient, i think it would be unfair of me to own the name since the poor man still obviously doesn't know what to do in response to my baffling re-appearance in his life via a book, less than a week ago...give it up people, until i know more, you shan't either...love you though, sorry for being a pain...! xxxxxxx