longing for april

i was, and now its finally here
march for me seemed like the longest month ever..
and now the summer season of bank holidays seems upon us...because you know, as soon as easter's over with, mayday's just around the corner and then its non-stop pimms and gin and eating outside and five yes five weddings and missing the whole of wimbledon again and going to ireland and the sun just never seeming to go down...
my heart feels slightly mulched these days. for reasons of copyright i cannot explain why, but mulched it feels. in a good way mind you.
i had another round of severe nightcleaning the other night..in a -i'm gonna wash that man right out of my oven door- kind of a way. ended up cleaning everything! it helped. and besides, tim and chloe came up the next day, so it was nice to have a clean house for them. how lovely it was to have them to stay.
i am very much enjoying spending time in the evenings during the week by myself. me and claire t concluded the other day that i am perhaps a failed introvert...that naturally, i am much more introverted than my years of insecurity and therefore needing people and noise and attention, would actually give me credit for.
so peeling more of that rowdy na away (rowdy nick was my brother's name in school...i like to think that has has no monopoly on the word..) and wondering who lies underneath....
it seems maybe there is a calmer, more contemplative na who needs not the clamour and bustle but rather a good book, the westminster hour and some down-time with the lord to keep her going...
i like her, she's kind of new

now, i have a few salutations i would like to offer..bear with me..

welcome to the world, amelia joy lydia!
welcome back to these shores, ye gribbons...!
happy holidays to boyds, wenhams, w'ropes and hughes everywhere!
ozme that is so funny about your visa being there all along!! oops!

ok i'm done with shouty exclamation marks now
love you bye x