lately

i found a song about love
i guess its not the kind of jesus-lovin'-love we spend most of our time talking about. but its real. i know i haven't had it before. it entrigues me i think. makes me jealous. excited. scared.
makes me wonder what i'm doing rhe god stuff for. only momentarily. then i realise the guy in the song knows his faults and she knows her faults and they're pretty much relying on eachother to figure it all out. i think that's where i know i might be better off with the one i got.
in the momentary moment, i'm not even scared that i might have the god stuff wrong. or that it might all be a big fat lie. i think what gets to me is that it doesn't make me happy and scared and thrilled and nervous and giddy and needing like the guy in the song is while he's singing about the girl.
so is he missing something? he doesn't think so....
i think what i so often wonder, is, well..did i get a faulty version? of this spirit-filled-life..? the constancy is the missing component. is that a human fault? sin in me? because shit, i mean apparently god is unchanging. unwavering....no shadows of turning.......? ah-ha...!
thanks, brain, that was the one i was looking for..ok, i'm off....over and out....
ooh, here's the song...

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you want to feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it comin'
Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Yeah we're gonna let is slide

Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you
Don't suppose I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't charge
I'll live around it

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Mmmmm slide

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you manna get married
Or run away

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
Yeah slide

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall

Oh Oh Oh slide
(Just slide between the sheets of all the beds you never knew)
Yeah slide
Why don't you slide into my room
Just slide into my room
Oh, we'll run away, run away, run away