profuse apologies..

..for the dreary post of the other day. it all passed away, as these things tend to.
the surprising part is that is has stayed passed.
i left today. no more manchester living for this lady.
i did cry, but as i looked around, going through fallowfield, and withers, and all that crowd, i knew that i had no more time, noo more patience in me, no more energy to spend on a place that dosn't hold any of the purposes for my life in it. they can't work there.
the scary part is that i know that whatever happens, as of today, is only ever going to be out of the kindness of jesus, and the work i'm prepared to put in.
even old douglas, he knew that's what it all comes down to eventually. you gotta get down to it if you're going to sit on top of those textbooks and shout at passers-by, begging them to question. and question and questions.
any questions?
ys i'm sad, but i don't regret or don't wish anything were other than it is.
which i'm not sure has ever been true for me before.

thanks, one and all, for letting me go. and for letting me be there as a part-timer with you all, letting me come along for the ride.

stick with me, i'm going somewhere.....

not oh happy day

oh dear god i am so cross today and sad
= disgruntled
i have not felt disgruntled for a very long time, months even. and now i am back, after all the hard tefl work, looking for a damn admin job.
oh i'm so cross.
there are no jobs.
and i am now sad about leaving people, which somehow until today i have not been.

got to snap out of it am getting prayed for oh joy in a couple of hours.
have abandoned all grammar propriety.

word..

man, i can't, in fact, don't believe that the last time i blogged was april 1st...i wrote a monster of a post sometime in may...
but yeah, still a pretty shoddy effort on my part
i am half way through my third-last week in manchester
nearly six years of waiting and it turns out i still don't know how to leave.

pretty smashing new blog hey...? loving the green

so i'm feelin wierdly calm about spain....not excepting thed ending up in prison on the way stuff brought up by marijke (sp..?) last night....

i have been dispatched a commission from the lord to document the last six months, with reference to the various departure that have been/are going on....not sure what the point of the observations is going to be, but i know i am far from the only one is to be feeling a mighty intregue about how things work in a community that spans about ten countries....what i come up with will be posted on here....

well its good to be back, i've missed you maya...........

ok so in brief
tefl course is mental. i hate it and love it in equal measure.
fran is in barcelona.....let the games begin.,....
dc left. hewo left. oz left. three down, about ten more to go........
watched lost in translation again...confirmed its place in my top five films

ok gotta scoot...laters world.....x